Since today is the day you were born, it is a truly precious day. Thank you for being born. -Minam

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION!

1. Swear less.
2. Get fit.
3. Travel (Japan?)
4. Overcome my insecurities.
5. Take care of myself more.
6. Save money.
7. Learn how to drive.
8. Be friendly.
9. Get a job.


I classify a year as a good one if I saw the boys at least once for that year. Totally stupid. So yeah that made my 2009 oh-so-great. sarcasm intended. TRUTH IS - 2009 was an effing roller coaster ride irl and fandom-wise. I had so many misunderstandings and arguments with my relatives to the point that it already made me distant to them. My fandom was a big mess too. The disbandment issue didn't fail to ruin the 2nd half of the year. There were also a lot of issues within me that up 'til now I can't resolve.

2009 sucked my optimism. I think 2010's gonna be really harsh to me :(


(To make this entry less bland)

Bold all the things you've done in 2009

1. Did something you said you would never do.
2. Payed for someone who said they would pay you back but never did.
3. Lied about where you were.
4. Discovered a new musician.
5. Made something for a friend.
6. Got a new phone.
7. Got a new iPod/Zune/Mp3 player.
8. Watched three or more episodes of Saturday Night Live.
9. Made fun of someone.
10. Created a tumblr.
11. Flew on a plane for the first time.
12. Spoke in front of 15 people or more.
13. Met someone in real life that you originally met online.
14. Done something illegal.
15. Did your siblings chores for money.
16. Stayed up all night thinking about the worst thing that could possibly happen to later find out that you worried for nothing.
17. Hurt somebody you didn't mean to hurt.
18. Hugged your mom or dad.
19. Baked.
20. Made a new friend.
21. Lost an old friend.
22. Changed your views on society.
23. Laughed at something that wasn't funny.
24. Got upset over something that wasn't a big deal.
25. Had a horrible birthday.
26. Got a facebook.
27. Deleted your myspace.
28. Cried because you missed old times.
29. Cleaned your room.
30. Have a new found appreciation for someone you never expected to.
31. Told someone you love them and meant it.
32. Told someone you hate them.
33. Screwed something up but didn't mean to.
34. Received a gift.
35. Gave a gift.
36. Read a book that wasn't for school.
37. Ate a lollipop.
38. Threw away something by accident.
39. Smoked a cigarette.
40. Ran a mile.
41. Switched schools.
42. Aced a test.
43. Wished you were in the past.
44. Got scared about the future.
45. Got yelled at by your parents.
46. Lost a family member.
47. Saw an old friend.
48. Went to church/synagogue.
49. Hugged a stuffed animal.
50. Said you're going to make next year better.

SUPER SEXY HEADER POST. REAL ENTRIES BELOW.

because, fuck, he is my bias.

I promised to myself not to seek on any video related to ALL ABOUT TVXQ and patiently wait for my own copy to arrive. But damn, I couldn't resist... esp. to this sexiah lmao Got my copy already.

It is confirmed Junsu is a fucking horndog. I feel sad for him though that he has to express it through lyrics. SUBLIMATION AT ITS FINEST. The boy needs to make out with a girl right now that is... if he didn't get any from his almost a month vacation. lmao.

I have millions of jokes running in my mind right now about the song. The funny thing is every time I watch it, the jokes BUILD inside my head more and MORE. It's crazy.




so suggestive.

Junsu, I don't effin care if you charge for your "lesson"... as long as you teach well. lmao

and as much as I approve the tight pants, it seemed like Junsu was having a hard time dancing because of it so I say NO dnw.

Ok so i'm going to graduate on October. Yay for me. I passed all the major exams... and bombed my TCAP exam in a good way. I'm trying not to be lazy with the review for the nursing board exam because the least I would want to happen is blame myself for failing. That is for the intensive phase. I've been trying to refocus and set my priorities straight right now. Idk if TVXQ's hiatus due to the lawsuit is like God's way for me to focus more with my studies and spend less time with fandom but... it's not working srsly.

I already have an idea how my life would be if the boys were to disband.... It would be very boring. Going online isn't exciting anymore.  TVXQ withdrawal is bringing the worst in me. It's making me emo and bitchy. I don't want them to disband... The dispute should be settled soon :(

On a brighter note, I am totally loving Universal records right now ♥ Shinee's Romeo and SNSD's 2nd mini-album are going to be released here on October 2... and then TVXQ's mirotic. Wow that would be like my 4th version of Mirotic. I already bought a copy of SuJu's Sorry, Sorry yaaaaay.


Leaving you with the awesomeness of SuYin

beautiful. (Click the CC for the english sub)

I actually have a lot of things to say about this video but I can't do it right now because of the suuuuuper slow internet connection! aaaand I can't download this from daum fuuuuuuuuuccccck

Nostalgia at its best. This brings back memories of my epic Mirotic BKK trip last June <33333 I hope this wouldn't be the last time.

@ 00:46 Junsu giving you the i-am-gonna-cut-a-bitch vibe
@ 00:38 - 04:00 Watch how Changmin almost dragged the girl unknowingly. According, to Emma, she is willing to be dragged(even to hell lol) like that as long as it's Changmin.

...and Yunho looks like he's being arrested for doing something illegal. lmao

Translation of the Official Press Release:

1. 5 years after their debut, the three members are physically and emotionally fatigued from the company's one-sided orders.
-Kim Junsu, Kim Jaejoong, and Park Yoochun debuted as DBSK members in 2004. Since then, they have followed SM's orders to go from Korea, Japan, to China. With the exception of 1 week for year, they were only able to get 3-4 hours of sleep and had to go through schedules. During this period, the health of the three members deteriorated and they were mentally fatigued. However, SM pushed DBSK into foreign markets which resulted in excess performance plans. In result, the three members felt that they would not be able to achieve their dreams in SM and would be just tools for the company's profit. They wished to participate in entertainment activities according to their individual visions.

2.In reality, 13 years of contract meant a contract for life.
-According to the contract, the period of the contract was 13 years, but when including military service, would exceed over 15 years. This meant that there was still 10 years to go with the current contract and in reality, meant until retirement. In the instance that the contract would be breached, the penalty would be to pay 3 times the total investment, 2 times the lost earnings. Even in the case that the contract is canceled when agreed by both parties, the members were required to pay penalty. Therefore, due to the millions of wons required by the contract upon cancellation, contract cancellation was realistically impossible and the members had no choice but to remain in SM

3. The members did not receive adequate treatment from SM for their efforts.
-Despite all this, during the duration of their contract, they did not receive adequate treatment from SM. They did not receive any earnest money from the contract, and according to the initial contract for album profit allotment clause, only when an album sold 500,000 copies, could they get $10,000 per member for the next album, and when albums sold less than 500,000 copies, the members could not receive any earnings. This clause was revised in 2009, February 6th, but even after the revision, earnings that each member would receive for the album sales were 0.4%-1% depending on the album sales.

4. The members requested for corrections to the unreasonable contract, but SM did not listen to the member's opinions.
-In this situation, the three members pointed out the unreasonable parts in the contract and asked multiple times to be freed from the contract's boundary and work according to their visions but in response to the current situation, SM discussed issues dealing with their investments in the makeup company, not responding to the true nature of the problem. Despite all this, the three members wanted to find a way to deal with the situation and requested for a conference where both parties could find a solution but SM did not respond. During this process, by the attitudes shown by SM, the three members realized that there was no point in hoping for a settlement and resorted to the court of justice to execute a solution for the problems.

5. The investment in makeup company does not have any relation to entertainment activities and does not have any relation to the applied provisional disposition. The nature of this incident is the contract.
-SM stated that the disposition was submitted due to the investment but the members' investments in the makeup company do not have anything to do with the provisional disposition. The makeup company SM discussed planned to export to China, and the three members invested as stockholders, having no relation with their entertainment activities. Just by common sense, it does not make sense that the members would give up all their efforts and results as DBSK in order to invest $100,000 to the company. The core of the problems presented by the members is contract injustice, and SM's attempts to blur the true problems by bring up the investments must stop now.

6. The members do not want DBSK to break up and just hope to free themselves from contract restraints.
-May fans are worried that the disposition would result in DBSK's break up. However, this disposition was not intended for DBSK to end. Right now, due to differences in how the members wish to overcome problems, only 3 members have participated in the lawsuit. However, there is no problems within the members and they all have the same wishes to keep their promises with their fans to always remain as one. After this incident, if contract injustice is corrected and the members are given conditions to freely perform their music, they feel that everyone can be one and can stand in front of fans as one.

7. We will take this as an opportunity to mature.
-The members realize how much DBSK fans must be surprised and be disappointed about this incident and are distressed and sorry. If the fans could think of this as a jump to bigger dreams and continue to cheer, the members promise to respond to the fans as better musicians.

Source; translation by j. ad ore @ soompi
Original Korean source


This is really crazy. something beyond my comprehension.

It makes me sad how they were all smiley when they're in front of the camera but behind those smiles are... pain and suffering. Imagine how well they're good at hiding it.

Now there's the news about SM taking legal actions against the three. I really want to a confirmation if the news about SM's counterattack is true because if it is... well, it's definitely a bad news and things would be kind of hopeless in my opinion. If SM wanted to work it out with JaeSuChun then they wouldn't have to go so far as countersuing the plaintiffs. If both parties can't reach an agreement then I don't know what's going to happen next.


I really don't want to admit this... but I'm not getting a good vibe out of all this anymore.... like we're getting to the bitter end of the story? I seriously don't know anymore. I am so stressed out about the current situation. My head and heart feels so heavy. I feel nervous when a news about the situation pops up. Some may find it completely pathetic but what can I do? I've been a fan for 4 years. I've been like reading news about them, collecting their pictures, watching every show they're in, spending money on their merchandise and even traveling abroad just to see them perform for 4 years and I can't just like be cool about it. They've been a part of me for a long time and it would hurt so much if something bad results from this. I might entirely jump out of the KPOP world and exit with them.



And I don't get why...

People are saying how retarded TVXQ for signing the contract
They were young and all they wanted during that time was to be given a chance to sing :(


People are getting angry at Yunho and Changmin. Actually more hate on Yunho.
I was kind of bitter at first because I was so shocked and the idea that they are not part of the filing kind of shouts disbandment to me. But then I realized that I was wrong. We don't know what's really happening. We don't know what's the real deal between them. Yeah, I highlighted the part about how Yunho and Changmin have a different view on how to overcome the problem.

and I'm sure Yunho is having a hard time just as much.

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(here's another one. This doesn't have a dramatic background music. You can hear fans screaming.)

This is way crazier than the usual madness they experience in the airport. Press people were there too.

Isn't it such a relief to see the boys together again?